The design of my life

I dream of design

simple and easy

different and exotic 

like how mangoes are in the streets of Khartoum

yellow with wisdom

smelling sexy and wild

I wish there be hope

the one inside me 

the one within my soul and heart

to make things right 

to say the right things

that never upset anyone 

but always make them feel well

for I feel like i make people feel ill

because my mind is wrong

and my heart is not strong

and the way my art is
is confusing

and my true shape
is unknown

and the graphs of soul

are hidden

I wonder if a clock made with picture frames

all different shapes and sizes and colours and

 wonderful pictures

of  M & A

of Family

of children

of smiles

of flowers

of Sudan..the sunset and sunrise over a broken down river Nile

old with destruction

new with hope

that has just moved into it

would be one way to be colourful

and intricate with new beginnings 

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