I realised today...

I realised today I am part of a deep family, of history and time, running through me, of seconds that became humans, that became relatives, that became gone , and that r eturned, that became here and that came there , and now are everywhere and I somewhere amongst them. maybe lost, maybe found ,
I realised today.. I am the centre of a wide kaleidoscope of unseen, visions, things happening to bring me here, scenes shot to run me today.. live and alive

I realised today , family is precious, for in an instant , you may lose someone you never knew even existed, but in that same precious moment you may discover someone new that always existed and is a blood relative.. and no matter how unfamiliar they are to you

... their relativity  becomes obvious with their kindness and that unexplored feeling of connection you start to discover

I realised today.. that family may save you... quickly, and without them - you would never know who you are and why youre here.

Today , I realised im here to bring forward that connection of family into my soul and my life, my heart and my strength , my own kindness and that I could never go forward if i didnt go back to behind OMdurman houses and find a family never known...

for just like we drove to the past, I realised the past has been driving me back. and ive been letting it, but the truth is , the past is only important so that you remember where youre going and that you never forget the footprints that youve left behind. but I will never let my past weaken me or my fears harden me, or my inabilities consume me, or my arrogance substitute me

for I realised today im an arrogant woman and my past is really simply and ... poor
and I realised to day im a stupid woman and my memory is gone with the wind....



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