Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The last sunset - The fasting promise -




The Fasting Promise means that I will always have in my Heart the Idea of Fasting - Keeping a healthy body,mind and spirit.

Amr Khalid the best Islamic religious scholar mentioned -

' That when you stop food and drink then your mind remembers everything else -'

Even if I don't Fast literally the idea of promising to remember that Mode

My body

The Gold Chain


The Gold chain is an inspirational idea for 2009

It is a metaphor that I will be living by
The Gold chain stands for
Sharp continuity,
A Gold Journey and hence an
Expensive Destination.
Along the chain inspiration connects places...( My Faith, my Dreams, my College, my Friends, my Family, Romance, my Goals, Beyonce, Fashion, Art, Music,)

In my arms_ 0 days to go_part2* ( The Countdown)


I’m sorry God for wasting so much time in this 2008
I hope you forgive me, begin me with a new fate
2009 represents for me first a chance to change
To make you proud, to widen my range
Into the perimeters of success, possibilities and amazement
Into creation, talent and no wrong arrangements

Second, I dream to inspire myself and then others
I dream to achieve, perceive and never deceive
I dream to forget the devil and open a new chapter with your angels
I dream to ambassador my elegance as I walk and talk...
I dream to fulfil, commit and motivate my soul
I dream to unite, upright and stay bright

In the previous year, I was confused and lost
In this previous year I was of poor cost
Valuing nothing of what I aspire to pay
Nothing expensive for the price that I say

2008 gave me some open doors, achievements and good days
But nothing like what I really desire, want to reach and never to succumb
Mistakes blotted my year, cries puddled by fears and my time was not so dear
Hesitations were high; everything was low – compared to my hidden glow


2009 is where the glow shines
2009 is where my costs rise
2009 is how my life will change
2009 is how my days will grow
Into better, stronger, wiser
2009 is the way my heart will fulfil
2009 is the way my body will win
2009 is the time my energy needs
To use all its power to achieve
2009 is the bridge to the future
2009 is the cut of the past
The difference that will last
2009 is my moment
2009 is my goals, my dreams, and my reality merging into truth
2009... is me
This concludes my countdown over the past 5 days. My message is strong and I have so many dreams to begin. Next is the outlook towards 2009. Next is 2009. Next is the chance I've been waiting for .

In my arms_ 0 days to go_part1* ( The Countdown)



As I mentioned when we leave things for too long sometimes we forget how to change them – or they become solidified deep within us that they are almost impossible to kick out –
2009 is the weapon – it is the start

The way I will see it – a powerful weapon to change any impossibilities into 100% possibilities


Nothing will be impossible in 2009

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

A Devils Love_حبيب بني آدم ...Lover of Destroying...

This series is so interesting, educational and most of all intimidating to the heart and mind of what a devils love really is - wicked and evil - and falling to our weakness and bad intentions are only the beginning of a losing desperate road if we ever do fall in love with a devils love -
Nothing makes us feel more helpless, and so torn apart, broken down and lost than listening to the devil-
Nothing is more harder than fighting the temptation to give in to whatever seems so reasonable and lustful at the time - but deep in our goodness we know its a powerful lie, defeat of a challenge - and nothing is less attractive than a quitter
This battle we should never give in to- to win ourselves and not let this fake devils love win us over temporarily and we need to prove to ourselves the meaning and loyalty that we hold internally, and keep our souls strong and clean for God to see.

I was really moved by this series called - abaleeso and I hope it will be a striking truth for young people to learn from (THIS IDEA AND THE REST OF THEM) -

The Islamic Bed...The Flowering Cycles...


The beauty of Islam is yet a project I have to fulfill...Only barely skimming the surface I intend to dive through:


more knowledge

more stories

more discoveries

more beauty

more faith

more understanding

more strength

more convincing

more internal bliss

more relaxation

All through more ... Love for my religion.


During the past I have had ups and downs... Loving Islam, Obeying the Devil, Not placing the words perfection, delicacy & precision with prayer, Hiding the magic of the Quran, Neglecting the power of Hijab, Forgetting my ideas and my basics, Leaving the angels fly away.... Losing instead of winning.


This blog had and always will have the intention of driving myself into more and more inspiration Love and passion and truth for my Religion.


The project I mostly enjoyed was a Devils Love... so well created, artistically drawn and covering such a wide range of very important topics, it drew my attention in 2008. I concentrated to finish it so as to begin new projects fresh in 2009. One part of a Devils Love remains( Post After) however and this is the most important one, extremely powerful and intimidating. It consists of the Devil talking to human kind... US.. You..ME. I chose to end the project with this piece as a final part but remembering it in my everday thoughts along with the others is my goal...

Understanding can only stem from knowledge, patience, praying, accepting, continuing, and most importantly NEVER GIVING UP>




Hijab is my personality ...
it is my purpose to fulfill, create and invent ideas for hijab... be Modern and Elegant... ME...Be Islamic and New... IN...





Religion is the Basic Elegance - BE


Finally, So many Ideas are in my daily thoughts for this blog in relation to my passion for dedicating a big part of my Life towards making Islam look Beautiful, Elegant, Delicate... The Islamic Bed. Other New projects... (The Flowering cycles, The Hijab pearl and Magnificant Islamic women) new stories and poems, new images and pictures, new everything.... are keys to my hearts openings for 2009.

A Devils love_ وثالثهما الشيطان

This series is so interesting, educational and most of all intimidating to the heart and mind of what a devils love really is - wicked and evil - and falling to our weakness and bad intentions are only the beginning of a losing desperate road if we ever do fall in love with a devils love -
Nothing makes us feel more helpless, and so torn apart, broken down and lost than listening to the devil-
Nothing is more harder than fighting the temptation to give in to whatever seems so reasonable and lustful at the time - but deep in our goodness we know its a powerful lie, defeat of a challenge - and nothing is less attractive than a quitter
This battle we should never give in to- to win ourselves and not let this fake devils love win us over temporarily and we need to prove to ourselves the meaning and loyalty that we hold internally, and keep our souls strong and clean for God to see.

I was really moved by this series called - abaleeso and I hope it will be a striking truth for young people to learn from (THIS IDEA AND THE REST OF THEM) -


A Devils Love_Forget about heaven... if you dont' treat your mother beautifully

This series is so interesting, educational and most of all intimidating to the heart and mind of what a devils love really is - wicked and evil - and falling to our weakness and bad intentions are only the beginning of a losing desperate road if we ever do fall in love with a devils love -
Nothing makes us feel more helpless, and so torn apart, broken down and lost than listening to the devil-
Nothing is more harder than fighting the temptation to give in to whatever seems so reasonable and lustful at the time - but deep in our goodness we know its a powerful lie, defeat of a challenge - and nothing is less attractive than a quitter
This battle we should never give in to- to win ourselves and not let this fake devils love win us over temporarily and we need to prove to ourselves the meaning and loyalty that we hold internally, and keep our souls strong and clean for God to see.

I was really moved by this series called - abaleeso and I hope it will be a striking truth for young people to learn from (THIS IDEA AND THE REST OF THEM) -


A Devils Love_ Flirting_ أساليب المعاكسة

This series is so interesting, educational and most of all intimidating to the heart and mind of what a devils love really is - wicked and evil - and falling to our weakness and bad intentions are only the beginning of a losing desperate road if we ever do fall in love with a devils love -
Nothing makes us feel more helpless, and so torn apart, broken down and lost than listening to the devil-
Nothing is more harder than fighting the temptation to give in to whatever seems so reasonable and lustful at the time - but deep in our goodness we know its a powerful lie, defeat of a challenge - and nothing is less attractive than a quitter
This battle we should never give in to- to win ourselves and not let this fake devils love win us over temporarily and we need to prove to ourselves the meaning and loyalty that we hold internally, and keep our souls strong and clean for God to see.

I was really moved by this series called - abaleeso and I hope it will be a striking truth for young people to learn from (THIS IDEA AND THE REST OF THEM) -


A Devils Love _والرشوة

This series is so interesting, educational and most of all intimidating to the heart and mind of what a devils love really is - wicked and evil - and falling to our weakness and bad intentions are only the beginning of a losing desperate road if we ever do fall in love with a devils love -
Nothing makes us feel more helpless, and so torn apart, broken down and lost than listening to the devil-
Nothing is more harder than fighting the temptation to give in to whatever seems so reasonable and lustful at the time - but deep in our goodness we know its a powerful lie, defeat of a challenge - and nothing is less attractive than a quitter
This battle we should never give in to- to win ourselves and not let this fake devils love win us over temporarily and we need to prove to ourselves the meaning and loyalty that we hold internally, and keep our souls strong and clean for God to see.

I was really moved by this series called - abaleeso and I hope it will be a striking truth for young people to learn from (THIS IDEA AND THE REST OF THEM) -

The fashion...The set_ POW



I want to become... The Fashion... The Set




The Beginning of the End... Start of the Magic.


Life in ransom will resume in 2009 filled with a new substructure, new external and internal meanings and new definition. I desire to change the theme and art of My Blog and its products along with so many other aspects of my Life....


2009 themes include

Elegance

Inner Strength

Romance For Islam

Outer Beauty

Modern Example

Time Perfection

Sweet Imagination

Iresistable Sudan

Defining personality


I have buzzing thoughts, imaginations, ideas, rythyms, magical fantasies, dreamy stories, real stories, POEMS .

.


I lust for change... Within me and From me

I yearn for meaning... Inside me and by me

I hope for understanding... For me and through me


Life in Ransom_ DGR Women

DESIGNED


GROWN


RUTHLESS




Women

Life in Ransom_ 2009


\Find your space in 2009 - Live your life with rolling numbers... find your zen and success all in the same place -- This year.

Life in Ransom_ True Romance is being married


A Devils Love_ Maid treatment_ (Have mercy on people so God will have mercy on you).

This series is so interesting, educational and most of all intimidating to the heart and mind of what a devils love really is - wicked and evil - and falling to our weakness and bad intentions are only the beginning of a losing desperate road if we ever do fall in love with a devils love -
Nothing makes us feel more helpless, and so torn apart, broken down and lost than listening to the devil-
Nothing is more harder than fighting the temptation to give in to whatever seems so reasonable and lustful at the time - but deep in our goodness we know its a powerful lie, defeat of a challenge - and nothing is less attractive than a quitter
This battle we should never give in to- to win ourselves and not let this fake devils love win us over temporarily and we need to prove to ourselves the meaning and loyalty that we hold internally, and keep our souls strong and clean for God to see.

I was really moved by this series called - abaleeso and I hope it will be a striking truth for young people to learn from (THIS IDEA AND THE REST OF THEM) -


In my arms_1day to go_part2* ( The Countdown)


Fear* a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.


Feelings of fear episodically try and dramatize their genes within me... they fear I am throwing them all away in one day... Grasping against my freedom to be strong and determined, I will rise over fear. No fears, fears that once held me from living, from discovering, from becoming... They try and chain me as I try and unchain me and the war battles on... No fears will step with me, no fears will live in me, All fears will be united to vanish into the memories of the past year and NEVER this new and bright year .2009 represents a solid entity that I resemble of my Beautiful, Islamic, Modern, Romantic, Elegant nature that will only incorporate... EXPENSIVE STRENGTH.

In my arms_ 1 day to go_ part1* ( The Countdown)


A new day has arisen ...A new chance is being born for I to conquer... let me enter into the realms of the new hour open and ready... ready to succeed, to change, to believe in myself and to accomplish...all that was impossible...all that was hard.... in this new year, let me be divine, elegant and self gracious,,, let me be modest, daring and truthful to my goals. I want to banish my voids and polish my elements to the highest luster. Let me find peace of mind, MY mind, my thoughts, my second, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, year, 2009 year....

Monday, December 29, 2008

Reminiscing Sudan 3






BEAUTIFUL>>>>

In my arms_2 days to go ( The Countdown)


Sometimes when we leave things for a long time they get harder and harder... to achieve... it’s like we forget why we wanted to do these things and how exactly we felt when we first.... I mean FIRST took them on. 2009 represents the start... The start that I need to begin something that



IVE never failed and I never will. Everything in 2009 will have this representation.


A Devils Love - Stay sleeping forever السهر

This series is so interesting, educational and most of all intimidating to the heart and mind of what a devils love really is - wicked and evil - and falling to our weakness and bad intentions are only the beginning of a losing desperate road if we ever do fall in love with a devils love -
Nothing makes us feel more helpless, and so torn apart, broken down and lost than listening to the devil-
Nothing is more harder than fighting the temptation to give in to whatever seems so reasonable and lustful at the time - but deep in our goodness we know its a powerful lie, defeat of a challenge - and nothing is less attractive than a quitter
This battle we should never give in to- to win ourselves and not let this fake devils love win us over temporarily and we need to prove to ourselves the meaning and loyalty that we hold internally, and keep our souls strong and clean for God to see.

I was really moved by this series called - abaleeso and I hope it will be a striking truth for young people to learn from (THIS IDEA AND THE REST OF THEM) -

Friday, December 26, 2008

Reminiscing Sudan 2




I wish that the parks today were just even a slight fraction of how clean,quiet and respected they were in the 1960's compared to now. Amazing how our modernisation has done nothing but destroy our heritage and nature...


In my arms_4 days to go... (The Countdown)


All the mistakes I have created are part of my mind. They will always be... but the genius is the person that is able to dissemble their grasp. Laziness is a sacred failure. Negligence is the partner that loves kissing disgrace. Nothing will work if I let those aspects become any part of my discovering personality. Sleep is a methodical miracle. Dark angel didn’t sleep... only 4 hours every couple of weeks... she had the personality of a hero... the strengths of a true achiever... Too much sleep simply destroys time... And I need time as a tool in 2009. Temptation is a beautiful weakness but a fatal nightmare if lost control with...messed around with. I think about temptation and what it has done in my LIFE...what it can do... like a hypnotisation to pull me back a thousand steps... like a poison to destroy all the hard work... Temptation as I said is beautiful though...I will always have the temptation to fall in Love, live a fantasy, live a dream...but NOT TODAY...TODAY... I am in a realistic sphere only twirled magnetically into the makings of ME....

Thursday, December 25, 2008

In my arms_ 5 days to go... (The Countdown)


I feel exhilarated as trails of thought begin to form. So many things I can achieve, so many dreams I can make them all come real. I feel the air begin to collect into a meaning and suddenly my breaths are for a reason...my heart beats faster and a gush of true blood inspires my aspirations... I want to win. I can do anything I desire, deal with any nomadic problems and make them disintegrate as part of the whole project... The prize project. I realise that I need Gods love and approval... he who doesn’t have ‘Deen’ will never be seen. And my objective is to be seen and heard and felt... I realise that this is not an easy task; to gain God’s true love and be worth his while... but then people don’t become important for doing nothing... I realise that I have to make a choice between the right choice, wrong choice and the easy choice. My mind is dazzling with images of the future.Italic.. days of hard work are yet to be ... but as this year comes to a close and a new year begins to unlock its doors open ...I realise that this is the chance to begin life again... It is a door that I must open fully... break the chains... Never look back...
2009 represents for me... A new me... A wonderful me... one that even I have never seen before...6 days. Until 2009...it is in my arms to begin now. In my arms to change this day into TODAY.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

A Devils Love - Entering your Home دخول البيت

This series is so interesting, educational and most of all intimidating to the heart and mind of what a devils love really is - wicked and evil - and falling to our weakness and bad intentions are only the beginning of a losing desperate road if we ever do fall in love with a devils love -
Nothing makes us feel more helpless, and so torn apart, broken down and lost than listening to the devil-
Nothing is more harder than fighting the temptation to give in to whatever seems so reasonable and lustful at the time - but deep in our goodness we know its a powerful lie, defeat of a challenge - and nothing is less attractive than a quitter
This battle we should never give in to- to win ourselves and not let this fake devils love win us over temporarily and we need to prove to ourselves the meaning and loyalty that we hold internally, and keep our souls strong and clean for God to see.

I was really moved by this series called - abaleeso and I hope it will be a striking truth for young people to learn from (THIS IDEA AND THE REST OF THEM) -

Echoes in my mind_ (The Prize)


So as I decide on my life and future dreams , what I want to do where I want to go – I realise all the mistakes I’ve done in the past were crucial understandings and even though they might have destroyed me in effort, embarrassment and wrong deeds I still imagine that they might just have a cent of good – towards the new investigations and experiments that design the intervals between my past, present and amazing future – I sit upright and wonder about time wasted, moments tasted of anxiety and stubbornness to be bold – but then the inspiration approves itself that I am a coincidence of brilliance and hope – I am hope – I love God – I love to please God and to make Islam proud – I love making my family proud – it is one of the best feelings in the world – just as receiving a prize is the best in the world – And so as I ponder upon all my achievements that can be magical and wonderful to a limit that is so large and grand – I realise that I need to forget the hindering effects of any negativities and understatements and begin to step on and master the vast picture of magnificence and dedication to God firstly , myself secondly and to my family thirdly.

Reminiscing Sudan 1





How Beautiful is Old Sudan Late 1960's compared to Now 2008?
I would live in that era over today
Living in Peace and Harmony
Seeing and Feeling True Sudanese Beauty and Nature.
People having Respect for their Land, Country and Themselves
Roads organised, Cars parked neatly, Buildings kept Clean


I think our 'New Generation' - so called Full of Knowledge, Technology and an Interesting Life, has a few things to learn from our Amazingly Dedicated and Wonderful Past History.




Saturday, December 6, 2008

Praying with style...Heart and Mat

I Love this Idea - personalising prayer mats and creating them with design thats cool, modern and stylish - I love ideas that are simple and yet can do a thousand fold for making young people pray but most importantly ... Love to pray - and also love to change Islam into still the same Islam but into a beautifully modern one -

The idea here comes from the project - AQIM SALATAK -
سجادتك من إختياركما دام بتختار كل شيء في حياتك من حقك تختار شكل سجادتك،



Wednesday, December 3, 2008

A Devils Love - SMOKING : التدخين

This series is so interesting, educational and most of all intimidating to the heart and mind of what a devils love really is - wicked and evil - and falling to our weakness and bad intentions are only the beginning of a losing desperate road if we ever do fall in love with a devils love -
Nothing makes us feel more helpless, and so torn apart, broken down and lost than listening to the devil-
Nothing is more harder than fighting the temptation to give in to whatever seems so reasonable and lustful at the time - but deep in our goodness we know its a powerful lie, defeat of a challenge - and nothing is less attractive than a quitter
This battle we should never give in to- to win ourselves and not let this fake devils love win us over temporarily and we need to prove to ourselves the meaning and loyalty that we hold internally, and keep our souls strong and clean for God to see.

I was really moved by this series called - abaleeso and I hope it will be a striking truth for young people to learn from (THIS IDEA AND THE REST OF THEM) -

(Echoes in my mind)_ The Presidential Flower


I must stop and find
I need to rewind
All the processes of my mind
Thoughts compatible with my kind
Instead of being always allergic and blind
With despair and construction of desires
I need to discover
Love in me before dreaming of another
Before wishing upon fallings stars through glass of shattered fantasies
Calmness –
I hope for silence of dreams to take away the blasphemies
And bring me pearls of stolen entities that once were jewels
Of me – By me – With me – For me – In me –
Where did all my strength go?
Where did all my power blow?
How did I lose my faith in my beauty and knowledge?
When did I change into this horrid message?

I must go upon the thin chances and think of heavy memories
That once flew me away peacefully on a sky of remedies
A sea of sanctuaries
Moments of promises that I thought would last forever and wake me through the necessities of life

Things are changing and days are flaming with passions and pain
People are understanding but also misguiding and I need radars that stain
All lies and problematic voices
I open a shallow umbrella under the rain
Where coldness of emotions penetrates to my veins
Deep in my heart I pray that the pain – washes through the drains
Of my asking God for forgiveness and happiness
Strength and elegance
To be a Muslim women full of energetic existenceTo live life with beauty, hope and be - The presidential flower

Monday, December 1, 2008

NOT HIJAB


This is a very meaningful caricature I found in a sudanese newspaper outlining charachteristically the image a lot of young women have of the 'MODERN DAY HIJAB'
You can see just some of the mistakes portrayed funnily in this image but the concept is so deep. What muslim women reflect from their image towards Islam and hence Hijab is a crucial factor towards the ultimate survival of the beauty and strength of the REAL HIJAB - -

What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -