The Distinction 4

I ask myself the question
have you ever known god to be unjust in your life ?
no is the answer he has always been so so kind
so why now? clearly it is not that he wanted to hurt you
but it is that he wanted to show you
that you must try before he can give you anything
if you try and lose then it was not meant to be
otherwise it will remain hanging in the air for life
I ask myself the question
are you really trying ?
No is the answer
No
thus you will never ever succeed
I ask myself the question
why have you applied?
because i must try
even if its no
but it wont be if i try
if i try it will be meaning full
it will not be consuming
it i try it will be a chance lost
and not a chance stolen
if i try it will be a day sad and not many days many many days heartbroken
if it try I may succeed
and i may not
but it will not be that i didnt get it that will haunt me
it will be the fact that i didnt try
just like i am not trying in my life in other areas
as usual
as usual

SO HOW THEN DO YOU EXPECT A DISTINCTION? HUH?