The Distinction 1

A new life buds from a remorseful day
I understand from today a very important principle
It is not the pain of having failed in something but it is the pain of having not tried that consumes you

A new bud grows from a terrible conclusion
I feel tricked
i Feel like I've tricked myself and so no one should take the blame but me
I feel like I've stabbed my self in the back and I feel like I've let myself down greatly

I ask myself
how many bad choices have you made
how many were voluntary , non voluntary acceptable and fatal?
too many is the answer, the answers being short and wrong
I ask myself
is this the pattern you want to live your life?

I ask myself again
are you second best or are you a first that didnt try
it doesnt matter now the result is the same
the outer appearance is the same
but I know deep down
I know in all my heart and in all my mind
I could have been distinct

for it all I ever want ed
to be distinct in God's eyes, my parents eyes, my familys eyes, and my eyes,


So now I ask the question
can I ever be distinct ?