reminiscing forgiveness

God I have so much to say

From an empty place

from a broken heart

I have so much to give

and live

for

God I have so much to say

and pray

I know sometimes I do all wrong

and I am not strong

but if I do not return

If I do not understand

that I am losing the good part in me

then I am a dissapointment to the skies

as I looked I felt failure and distortion of mind

I felt weakenss

and mad embarassment

like ive never felt before

and i thought

is this how everyhtings been feeling

how they look down and see me

so angry

for nothing

so mean

for nothing

so intimidating

for nothing