If I was the woman who wasnt here today

If .......I was the woman I wanted to be
perfecct in all honesty
would all my dreams come to me?
or would I still be wanting them , wanting to see

If I was the woman I needed to become
Would everyhting I wanted just be done
Would all my sadness turn and be gone
or would I still be searching for dreams that havnt come

If I was the woman whose failures didn't exist
would those failures be sadly missed?
Would it be a failure that they were all fixed?
or would it be great, that no failures were on my list

If I was the woman whose life was re arranged
would I be happy or would I be enstranged?
wouuld I be normal or would I be deranged
would I feel ok or would war be waged?


If I was the woman whose life made sense
would it be beautiful or would it be nonsense?
would it be relaxing or would i get tense
would it be passionate or lack all dense?

If I was the woman who got all she wanted
would it be perfect or would it be distorted?
would it be extravagant or would it be flaunted
If I got all I wanted...would I be relieved or would i be haunted?

If I was the woman who had no fears
would I never cry or would i miss my tears?
would everything show or would everything dissappear
would it all be consice, would it all be clear

If I was the woman whose life was mine
would I order another or would I live divine
would I take what I have and make it fine
or would I throw it away and not look behind