Wednesday, November 9, 2011

I write the forgotten_ I write me


Please God help me thoughout hte day
let me stay awake let me never stray
let me live love and learn
let me be solid let me be stern
with shaytaans hypocrisy I do not blend
with your faith and prayer I heal and mend

Please God let me change forthe better for today
I must take it day by day
for the future by future is near and far
I look at it like a golden star
I put my hand out to reach
with good speech
with kind words
unbroken
unyielded from patience
I speak honourary
like an honourary contract with you

Please God
I ask for things
a lot of things
and I ask you to stop things
a lot of things
but one thing is the same
I ask you to be with me and to never let me go
 Iask you to have faith in me , like I have faith in you
Do not take what you have given me
Do not take my most cherished possession
......My Deen

Please God
I ask you to help me
I ask you to not deny me your mercy
your beauty
your time

I ask you to not deny me your covering
for without it I am bare raw exposed
I ask you to give me one morechance
like a free diamond your faith is
like a lot of money your love is
like a genius mind your call is
like a forgotten treasure inside me
sparkling to be found

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What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -