untitled realisation

untitled realisation that i am on the wrong train doing the right thing
no matter what i do i will get to the wrong destination
and i will reach the wrong place
the place i dont want to be in
and i will say


but..... this is not what i bought?

and it will be said

but dont you remember .... you changed your direction a long time ago


untitled realisation that i am expecting that i deserve lower
why dont i think that i deserve higher/?

untitled realisation that i am the one he chose to be here today
and i am the hope he gave life to
and i am the hope he made muslim
and i am hte hope that faith got installed into
and i am the hope that is working

untitled realisation that i have been malfunctioning
unrepaird
broken down

i have been excarebated into believing there is ....nothing
but there is something
there is always something
there is always something

and there is something that i want more than anything more than anything

i want this something
that im going to get to fill my heart more and more each day
that i want to live for so i can die for each day
that i m going to smile for each moment
and that im going be in hope for each time