Sunday, March 25, 2012

shake , shake , shake all your heaviness away

I think to myself  there are 2 really important dreams that i want
out of those 2, 1 I can achieve right now, one Icanget right now
God has given everything i need to get it to have it
and he has abled me to do it


and yet i cry
i scream
i beg for the other

like a silly child
IMUSTHAVEWHATIDIDNOTGET!


I think
If he gave me this then Ido not want it
I only want what i do not have


and yet today i was hurt

i thought
I am in the background because i decided to be
I am in the background because this is how hard i tried

I think
what
am I
missing to be on the top??


nothing



and yet i am missing everything



everything


 
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What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -