frightening words
it only takes one thought to be deficient for your life to be severely disable
one dream to be absent
one fear to be gone for you to be deficient from life
it only takes one morning for you to realise how badly youve done
how long youve been gone
it only takes a nightmare for you to scream
and wake up
it only takes a decision for you to become..... a new dream
it only takes forever until you see the truth
the truth which you already know
it only takes a memory then for you to cry
for you to wish you can die and start all over again
it only takes one vision to be deficent for your conquest to be severely disrupted
for your successes to be severelyi nterrupted
it only takes one hole for your body to sink
it only takes one weakness for your life to think........
oh how strong I was to go to hell
oh how good I was to meet this fire
oh how tired I am from this attire............
of hell inside me
of fire burning raging within me
of drama living my hours
of smoke invading my breath
of burn destroying my youth
of jealousy killing all I choose
to be
oh how I wish for a new day
where Ic an forgive myself
where I do not need to torment myself
and interrogatemyself
oh how I wish for a new day
with love inside me
and joy around me
and hope surrounding me
oh how I wish I was a better woman
a cleaner woman
a wiser stronger vision
for myself
oh how I wish i could forget the sadness
i could forget the excessive humiliation I always feel
oh how i wish I could love myself
for this is the true love I wish
if someone ver read any of whatI write
they might think I have loved and been loved a million times
but the truth is I have never been loved
and I have never loved ....
and the worst part of it all is I have never been able to love myself
i have never been able to take advantage of whoI am today instaed
of dreaming of tomorow
if i forgot today i would have nothing to remember any way
if I died today
there was nothing i lived for anyway
if i cried today
i would probably cry again tomorow
oh how I wish i did it all right
how i Wish i asked forgiveness and received it first from deep inside my heart
second from god
third form the world that I let hit me
oh how I wish i could smile from deep inside me and hate nothing around me
and close my eyes and open them and still find the same thing I want
oh how i wish I dream no more
how I wish I live for myself
for this battle is over this war is done.....................
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