Trying to fit in a raw jagged community of thoughts of war and torn freedom, inspired love to a tarnished world of romantic drugged feelings: you blaze in the night flaming your identity in an oil of mess, of petrolled faults ready to explode.
An invisible monster sleeping to the corner of a broken misery where your thousand shallow results fake you + make you into a globe of attacking modernity spiralling out of control.
you turn the sharp streets without patrol -To yourself.
Blades cut until you are not distinguished anymore. Finding no-one, you become a twisted shadow of yourself, everyone sees you as foreign relative and you see yourself at no advantage - to become something better than this.
Fearing that you cannot change - your thoughts range only in a narrow perspective of a wide field of miracles - You never ask the questions that you need to find out about, you never wonder about the reasons why you're an agitated spirit of a constant blackout, a junction of destroyed morality and just the cherry of all this diversity.
Your weak bravery somehow exampled by you tripping into this accidental life locks you with no escape towards a brighter light.
I always think about why you're like this, what it would have been like and what is it going to turn into.
I leave my heart on a stove of short memories, my tears boiling to explain how I hated seeing you like that and even though I knew what was wrong, I was the wrong shape to fit in your mind. I still am the wrong shape to make you see, to show those words to you;
Words that I dream of everynight battling a hypnotised individuality and a devils wisdom to make sense amongst all the lost meanings of your soul.
If I had a chance, I would tell you I think you're the best soldier I have ever known and in my heart you will always be.
If I had a chance I would suffer the consequences of breaking in the battle to reach your mind And do nothing but get hurt if thats what it takes to change you.
If I had a chance I would tell you how much I love you
But if I had a chance I would stop, stop, stop