Life cut through me like slices of unforgotten cake
The sweetness poured out of me till I couldn’t feel existence no more
There was a moment in time when I was suspended in time – the corners of my reality slowly merging with the motorways taking me out of this world
I felt unknowing, unwilling to go back but to go forward –
My cracked mind had split in 4
Depression, weakness, strength and failure
Stardom of confusion gazed upon me through a lens of maddening questions that needed answers
Click click click – my pictures were taken but they didn’t know I was sleeping –
Flick flick flick – my life rolled by so involuntarily I didn’t realize I was dying -
My eye lids shut a long time ago - before the light of their photographic pain came running in to haunt me
I smiled ghostly at the irreplaceable camera that breaks my soul time and time again
Winning the shadows of my sadness, achieving all the right roles of my madness
I couldn’t stop thinking anymore – too young yet too old for this fall
All my flat balance started to curve inside me – the ledges of time began to stop supporting me – I was too heavy now with all my raging fears, with all my flooding tears – with all my withholding cries – with all my nauseous tries - to keep standing up.
Spells attack and love fights back until tanks are empty from willingness
Promises shrivel and youth cripples so there is only ageing darkness
Fears nudge and distance shrugs at looking back to change things
Pains rise and nobody tries to fix broken wings
So angels fall and tunnels call to hide from it all
Confusion stares at everyone’s care to leave an unnecessary struggle
That I have to fight so I give up through the night and become part of an invisible jungle – collectively as the shot of a terrible angle – but now I rest – strangely quickly – my breath reacts to the forgotten eternity – of ledges of time supporting me –
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