Faith in crisis_ ( in the process of changing)

I will be there for you, no matter what you do
But I haven’t been good I haven’t been true
Its ok you are the one I will help in times of despair
But I have broken your trust beyond repair
You can always ask for forgiveness
I don’t deserve all this kindness
You need to pray and continue your reading
I need to change and beg for your healing
My soul is damaged from forgetting your beauty
Please god le me see your faith’s honesty
Blazing in the cold
Warming the frozen nightmares
I need your help your sleeping testimonies
I’m sorry I’ve been wrong
I regret all I’ve done
You can stop yourself from being mistaken
I want to make up for all I’ve forsaken
Give me a chance to show you someone else
You can do that and ill give you strength
Give me eyes to only see right
Ill give you sight to choose light_______________________
A prayer of thanks:
Thank you for letting me fly
Above the sky to a world so high
Full of chances and remedies
Closed from tragedies
Right now – I love you for helping me
But please guide me
Please guide me
Don’t let me fall of the beaten track
Pick me up before It’s too late to come back
Don’t let me ruin my life with my own hands
Don’t let me ruin my life with my own hands
Let me stay safe within your power
Protect me from black showers that stain me until I can't see who I am
Find me the soap to wash my dirty palms
My dirty palms -
I want to hide them before you see
The ugliness in me
But I can’t hide from you
I cannot show you fake clean pages of my age
Lock up my disasters in a hidden cage
Change me with calm instead of rage
Calm me from within
And take my impurities far
Turn me into a shining star
That can light for your faith,
That can smile with your trace
In her heart and mind
Let me find
Belief and honor
By loving your words and color
You draw prosperity like rainbows in my days
All from your kindness
You keep taking blackness