Early Day 7

I wonddabout staying up at this time
its strange moments go strange at 1.19 in the morning
I feel these minutes are the boders of the new day and yet it is not really here
so what shuld i do i nthe merging of times?
prayfaithful thinking
and not wishful thinking
belive
change

1.20 am
I watch the haram and all the people circling around
praying to be forgiven to be new to be strong to be happy to be healthy to be wonderful to be smart to be in heaven to get away from hell
i love ot watch them and I feeli am a part of thm even thuoghi am so far away
each one with a story the young te old the rich the poor from all over the world all over
i love to watch thm and think all thosepeople all those placestoone area onespace in thecentre of the earth they meet htey join they love
all the same faith all the same love of GOd if they have reached beyond the perimeters of this sacred beauty
I fee cloe o each one of them and yet sofar

i think abuot my prayers and what i wsh upon lfe to happen to me and what iwsh upon me later
in those times tat are scary to me and i feel afraid of

ish uold turn with them
Ya RAB let me go there one day
s i can pray ith them change with them be closer like them
Early Day 7
i lost the plot day 4,5, or was it Day 5,6, ? or was it 4 4 and 6? ive lost the plt i promised myself this ramadan wouldbe energetic woul be peaceful yet powerfully strong
would be adamant to change
and i
 am geting weak