destruction to perfection lies underneath the undergrounds of sin
I feel like ive been hit by a freight train
I could hear its nooise I had time to move
but I didnt
and I got broken, damaged and badly badly destroyed
handicapped in the heart now
traumatised in the soul now
lost in body now
stolen from mind now
gasping for a smile now
gasping for me
Ifeel like Ive been thrown from a plane without anything to save me
no parachutes of support
no other guide
no lifetime of hope to help me
no
just me and nothing to save me
and as the air pushes me into the other --- life
and as the birds laugh at my weakness and eminent death
and as the trees and mountains and other pieces of peace look so innocently maybe with a tear in their eyes
maybe with a lancing pain at my voluntary jump
i think so this is what it feels like to die/
?
this is what it feels like to be helpless and unlike movies or even reallife I am powerless to change my fate
this
is
what
it
feels
like?
how long now/
I feel like ive given myself up to be locked away
in the worst of prison
prison of satan and friends
looks nice from the outside
but inside you eat flesh of time and boiling blood of heart
this is not where i should be
but here i am where i shouldnt be
lost angry
remorseful
In that jail cell the key lies infront of me
i can see even have it
and yet i continue to look at it and suffer
yes
I feel like
ive been tricked
ive been shattered
ive been lied to
ive been lied to by myself
ive been fake
ive been pushed back a thousand steps
a thousands roads
a thousand memories
a thousand hours
a thousand feelings of rage
a thousand dramas
a thousand scenes
a thousand licks of dirt
a thousand times my eyes will say guilty
a thousand losses
a thousand expenses thrown away
I feel
like ive never felt before
useless
and a like a brokn hero
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