Day 3

Day 3 is not a good day
ive slept
ive dreamt
ive lost my plot of goodness
TAQWA
lost
its not ok just to do what you wnat hope
everything has a price
sometimes you dont even know the price it may be very very expensive 
ive become someone else
i can say right now when the day has not yet been completed that i am unhappy
can i conquer?
will say later
can i make my soul combat the fight and win ?
will say leter
can i keep this day on my days of wellbeing and strong Ramadan
wiill
say
later


LATER
 I think on the merges of DAY 4 I deserve to be better stronger wiser calmer more beautiful
I deserve to win
and all this negativity muust go
Dear GOD
i ask  you today and everyday to forgive me to love me help me and change me for the better
please do not let me give up or fail
please do not let me be alone in this fight
I ask you to help me in every step i do and carry out
i ask you to help me Ya Rab and lt me be some one you canbe proud of
not just


anyone
ya rab i want to be someone
more than anyone

Ya Rab let me mean something for this beautiful faith
let my name mean something good and let me do good for others
Ya RAb
i ask you to help me
repeated and repaeated i ask you to help me