Day 5

She is a better woman than me
lighter cleaner calmer
i am heavier
dirtier  madder
she's bright fresh and energetic
im lazy
dark and dull

shes  fashionable
im not


she has beautiful secrets
 iii
dont
i can see her happy
i can see me sad

I can see her tiptoing in the mignight clouds drinking cold water and feeling .....wise

I can see myself snoring drooling and when i wake up pains go all over my body i feel dumb

I can see her with a man she loves and a man that loves her

 ican see myself alone

I can see her win
i can see myself lose

i can see her go out anda enjoy
life

i can see myself
inside and closing life away

i can see her
i can see myself

which one would you choose ?
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RAMADAN comes so we can become better people
no worse
not afraid
not angry
not dull
not afraid
no fear
just from the one above
just frm the one above

so why am I so afriad
from my waek lonley ugly self/?

DAY 5
really what am I fasting for?
is itn ot to clean all this inner back up of time
is it not to get lighter
calmer cleanr
is it not to become the better girl
is itnot to change to believe
to admire life
and to win?
is it not to win
?So why am I losing
why am I losing
fast and rapid loss
quick sand
is underneath me
and i am close to suffocating
DAY 5
and I'm close to living or dying
for i see living half, living and feeling down is like dying and its worse
becasue dying is done and your done and your somewhere youll never know till then
but now your here and youve missed all the goodin life because of a bad woman inside you