every year i usually have a 100 posts pre ramadan ramadan this ramadan that
this year i have nothing
ive always had nothing
since i gave up on myself
since i forget empowerment love and what it feels like to really love someone something
GOd faith respectively
I
feel bruised
damaged
lost
mad
insensitive
cruel
i feel ashamed
angry
weak
tired
God im so tired
so breakable
unmanagable
so reusuable
recyclable but without hte goodness
I
close the tv and facebook
and wonder where my hear is my mind my heart
where are they for right now i cannot see them hear them feel them
right now itsl ike someone has turned on a never ending radio in my head
making me unable to hear the real sounds inside me
ssshshhshsshshshshshshhsshshshshshsshhshhshshshshshsshshshs
so loud
unable to stream the real live vision the real thing
i feel empty powerless and stupud
i feel un muslim in everyway
everyway of me
is unmuslim
and while i know the devil has worked well to make me feel liket his
it is still my fault for letting him
for not stopping myself
for this for that
______________________
Ramadan you are here like flowers blooming in this cold dew morning of one bright day
you shine like a new sunrise upon the people of sorrow
like me
unfaithful your magic spins the pain into petals
and scents of perfume bliss
true stuff
none of that fake stuff now
if i close my eyes
i can hear birds in the distance coming near
swimming int he sky
i can see the clearness of day and the cold of its memory
touches my skin
orange velvet dusk
light blue white
petals of flowers by
i see out beyond me a far horizon
a line where earth meets sky
one day earth will meet sky
like how my eyes trick me but it will be real
like my real smile
my real eyes glowing from happinness kindness
strength
NO i will not see anything but natures wisp of breeze
i am smiling because i know a lot and i feel a lot
i can feel cells of passion around me
drops of ray
cells of time freeze for me to find me
cells of time freeze for me to find me
this year i have nothing
ive always had nothing
since i gave up on myself
since i forget empowerment love and what it feels like to really love someone something
GOd faith respectively
I
feel bruised
damaged
lost
mad
insensitive
cruel
i feel ashamed
angry
weak
tired
God im so tired
so breakable
unmanagable
so reusuable
recyclable but without hte goodness
I
close the tv and facebook
and wonder where my hear is my mind my heart
where are they for right now i cannot see them hear them feel them
right now itsl ike someone has turned on a never ending radio in my head
making me unable to hear the real sounds inside me
ssshshhshsshshshshshshhsshshshshshsshhshhshshshshshsshshshs
so loud
unable to stream the real live vision the real thing
i feel empty powerless and stupud
i feel un muslim in everyway
everyway of me
is unmuslim
and while i know the devil has worked well to make me feel liket his
it is still my fault for letting him
for not stopping myself
for this for that
______________________
Ramadan you are here like flowers blooming in this cold dew morning of one bright day
you shine like a new sunrise upon the people of sorrow
like me
unfaithful your magic spins the pain into petals
and scents of perfume bliss
true stuff
none of that fake stuff now
if i close my eyes
i can hear birds in the distance coming near
swimming int he sky
i can see the clearness of day and the cold of its memory
touches my skin
orange velvet dusk
light blue white
petals of flowers by
i see out beyond me a far horizon
a line where earth meets sky
one day earth will meet sky
like how my eyes trick me but it will be real
like my real smile
my real eyes glowing from happinness kindness
strength
NO i will not see anything but natures wisp of breeze
i am smiling because i know a lot and i feel a lot
i can feel cells of passion around me
drops of ray
cells of time freeze for me to find me
cells of time freeze for me to find me
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