Tricked

tricked
perfect timing
and you are always the one losing
have you not asked yourself why you are always the one losing
having to deal and feel with pain all day long
and stolen memories from a woman stronger and better than you

tricked
lost minutes make up an hour , hours
a laugh at you invisible from behind
from in front
it works
after all
they are good what they do
and you?
no
you are not good at what you do

tricked
powerfully wrong
powerfully in pain
powerfully needing passion

an ache aches deep within
you ask yourself what is causing this circuit of tears
I say
deep tenderness to have an excuisite dream
that does belong to you

for youare nothing like the woman of your dreams
but thats not what aches

what makes the tear fall final its weight breaking further my defeat
is that i should be that woman of my dreams
whatever i want to be i should be
there should be no difference between those two women
and yet


they are two drasticly different women
they are two differently created creatures

tricked you are
untricked she is

and the difference is clear

I cry becasue i want to be untricked
and yet every second more
I am
fallen into anotehr trap

I think
time will end one day
2 or 3
I dont know
but time will end

and then time will spare heaven or hell
and all the time in the world will not be enough for regret

I will think
A heave n
I wonder whats in A heaven