Saturday, June 16, 2012

stabilise

stabilise your dreams and what they mean , they mean everything to you and they are not to be given away
remember
no one deserves them but you
no one can have them
no one can see them come true but you
the devil is clever
he makes you feel proud and happy and a feeling like you are in control
so you lax
and get cool
and stop tightening the holes
and before you know it
youre leaking
and back to drowning
the devil is clever
every minute the start gets further away
if u let that distance be forgotten
the start becomes faint
and the whole effort becomes faint
you must see the start as right now



everyday everyday you must ask yourself
what is my dream ?
and when you answer
you think
what am I doing to make me get or lose that dream

you must always refresh your memory
and your time
and your life
you must never give up but most importantly you cannot
give it away

do not give it away
to anyone
or anything

Do you hear me?
DO not give up so easily

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What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -