Before Ramadan trust vanished

Trust is something so valuable - I have learned that the hard way
But the river of trust can only begin by it's first creator - God
If you do not trust God and his mysterious ways for you - or his challenges for you or his paths for you
then you cannot trust anything or anyone
Trusting god suddenly lifts tonnes of your shoulders
suddenly picks you up from falling
by trusting that god has everything written for you beautifully you are safe
and u can turn to yourself
you can look towards trusting yourself
for you know now that you are just a part of this written paper of things happening
i let go on paper today that I have forgotten how to trust god
trying to do everything
tryingto find everything
trying to fix everything
trying to think of everything
trying to forget me
i write on paper that I am sorry to myself for letting myself get so forgotten
right now I cannot even trust myself

But ramadan comes and ramadan will heal
I will change and trust will flow once again