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I deserve to honor and love myself

To feel comfortable with who i am

To know i am smart and healthy

To work hard for anything and get results with that

I didn't do any work so far

I didn't work hard or enough so far in the things i really want to achieve

Like being a specialist

Like reaching a healthy weight

Like being a strong muslim

I came to falmouth to find myself

To reach new heights

To fall in love with the sunshine and the arts of the soul

Not to be sad and down

I feel like its a new challenge god has put upon me because i was smart with him

But that's not true because god is with me always in kindness and peace

He is not like me or bad others or or

He doesn't work to cause pain or getting back

He forgives and he loves and and

Believing that is beautiful

I'm playing with myself

I'm lying to myself

I'm scared to really get tired

I don't work hard enough

I need to prove to myself i am better i can do better

I'm tired of always feeling that im holding myself back

I don't want that

I don't want to get old having not tried living young

Ya Allah am so happy today

I have good weather

Good family

I have a good heart

I have good money

I have nice things

I can eat good food

Right now i have good health

I have freedom

I have a chocolate milkshake in front of me

I am... Me

And i wont let bad things happen to me 

I  wont

I will be happy for jasmine

She has nothing to do with it 

And i have nothing to do with it

TODAY
 i feel in control of my own attachments

I did get up

Everything i eat and drink i will love and taste well

I will not think any negative thoughts and im going to stop this damaging relationship i have with food

And i can combine

Because life is all about combining and living

And i will use control at the right time in the wrong places to achieve my goal

After all

I am the master of lost under control

I am happy