Echoes in my mind - (No, u don't understand)

I wanted you to see something else in me
Please don’t underestimate me
I’m afraid how wrong this is going to turn
When all I wanted was you to know
How u made me glow
But I was told over and over… and over
My mistake was in the depths of no return
I DID a huge mistake
Calling you
Calling you in my heart
I took too much from you
When u never wanted to give

The cold marches as soldiers in my body, engaged in a era of colonial trauma. Anguished and ambushed the freezing mentality of your refusal throws me in a battlefield of pain. I hide in the corners of my cries, fighting the swarm of enemies running to attack my defeat. I try and beat, try and win but it’s a sin, for my side to win. Troops of my love fall to the reign of your sternness, dictatorship of betrayal. My war is lead in the shadows of goodbye, a name to be forgotten by you, in the history of your romance.

I try and forget you
But all I do is remember
Its one thing figuring out the truth
Let it sink in the alleyways and pipes of my soul
That to your heart I can never call
And I hear from the distance the fates against my side
I needed something that you would never give me

I needed someone that is so far from me