Ramadan Taraweeh 3

I want to be happy
I want to be glamorous in soul
in love with good things

I want to be like Ramadan
pure, innocent, strong, kind hearted
filled with forgiveness and generosity

I want to be optimistic
true
words that come out are educated
and not primitive

I want to be educated and not primitive
want to be that glitter in heart
 that sprinkles memories over shoulders

I want to be early and not late
free and not troubled
I want to be productive
energetic
and yet
smooth like the calm ocean


never windy, never stirred
I want to be my own direction and not
a roundabout taking me where it wants to go
I want to go where I want to go

I want to be the unexpected
the open minded one
that one that respects and
not disrespectful

I want to be successful
the one who earns her own sweat and not buys it

or worse
steals it

I wonder at those and what theyve done
breaks my heart and makes me so angry i could scream
hate them
I hate them
all the things that could be terrible in a person

Ya Allah help me, I need your helo
being hateful is so negative
please help me,
please


Ya Allah in this Ramadan give me the power to love you and never leave you
to be kind and yet if my feelings are stronger , let me be able to control
better than anything
better than anyone