so here i am
the woman that is unattractive afraid suddenly of things people, people i dont even know
people that dont remind me of who i am and i become undifferentiated.
i
am
afraid
of strange things
like how they keep things and remember him, us and i just dont even know them
but it makes me fearful
that i pretend i am ok when i am
but really my body aches
and my heart is probably on the road and my mind is losing cells and my knees are gasping and my ankles are breaking
i
feel
isolated
all in a room except me
all in a place i cant seem to find
am i too extrovert? that it has made all find me difficult
or am i a woman that too speaks her mind and does what she believes in for that is what i was brought up to do
or am I too introvert? so much that people dont even understand me , even the closest to me, even the ones i wished that did... understand me
give a little touch , to my life
and then there are voices
strangers
but close people can become strangers
you can become a stranger to yourself
and i ask myself
if hate can become love, can love become hate?
this makes me target pain
makes me feel unstable in my life
in my beliefs
shaken that is
lost that is
whats the point of fighting then if you can suddenly put down your swords and hug
theres no point
was it all a waste of time
or was it a lesson?
was it the right thing to do
was it hte right thing to do at a certain time or was it wrong thing to do at anytime?
if you ever find that you hate someone
like really really hate someone
ask yourself why
because i didn't
and then i realised i was really afraid
not even of them , but of my own weaknesses
more importantly ,
don't spend your time in hate
its such a waste of time
and believe in those comments such as if you hate
it is you that gets consumed in it
if you don't like it, stop, and step back
but don't start, and step forwards
without believing in yourself and what you stand for first
remember you can stand for what you believe in without hating
a viscous mistake when i didn't do
also , do not ever carry out the actions of other peoples words
if someone tells you to do something, be something, think something, only do so if you believe it
make up your mind sitting in front of an ocean, on the most beautiful sunrise, with just the right temperature and your eyes glistening with hope
the woman that is unattractive afraid suddenly of things people, people i dont even know
people that dont remind me of who i am and i become undifferentiated.
i
am
afraid
of strange things
like how they keep things and remember him, us and i just dont even know them
but it makes me fearful
that i pretend i am ok when i am
but really my body aches
and my heart is probably on the road and my mind is losing cells and my knees are gasping and my ankles are breaking
i
feel
isolated
all in a room except me
all in a place i cant seem to find
am i too extrovert? that it has made all find me difficult
or am i a woman that too speaks her mind and does what she believes in for that is what i was brought up to do
or am I too introvert? so much that people dont even understand me , even the closest to me, even the ones i wished that did... understand me
give a little touch , to my life
and then there are voices
strangers
but close people can become strangers
you can become a stranger to yourself
and i ask myself
if hate can become love, can love become hate?
this makes me target pain
makes me feel unstable in my life
in my beliefs
shaken that is
lost that is
whats the point of fighting then if you can suddenly put down your swords and hug
theres no point
was it all a waste of time
or was it a lesson?
was it the right thing to do
was it hte right thing to do at a certain time or was it wrong thing to do at anytime?
if you ever find that you hate someone
like really really hate someone
ask yourself why
because i didn't
and then i realised i was really afraid
not even of them , but of my own weaknesses
more importantly ,
don't spend your time in hate
its such a waste of time
and believe in those comments such as if you hate
it is you that gets consumed in it
if you don't like it, stop, and step back
but don't start, and step forwards
without believing in yourself and what you stand for first
remember you can stand for what you believe in without hating
a viscous mistake when i didn't do
also , do not ever carry out the actions of other peoples words
if someone tells you to do something, be something, think something, only do so if you believe it
make up your mind sitting in front of an ocean, on the most beautiful sunrise, with just the right temperature and your eyes glistening with hope
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