Promises... In 2016

Where are you

When things are happening

Showing up and missing

Showing up and people laugh

But its not laughable

Like how your mind prepares

And your heart prepares

And your body doesnt

Or how you feel that words are coming

But theyre not the real thing

Or how things are supposed to go

But i need to promise myself things

And not burn them

Like start new plans, projects and periods in my life

Filled with hope and not despair

Filled with hope of tommorow being the tommorow i want 

And the tommorow i need

With hope that i can have sweet moments and sweat

And a new process and a new life

By 2

Ya allah 

Forgive me when i am wrong

And although i cannot be part of their team

I can be a part of yours

And my own team

My beautiful family

Ya allah

Let it be my day one day the feeling

Better than my weding

For i realised its unprecedented

That feeling im waiting for....

And whn you knock on my door

Ill be here