Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Please save me from the pain

hey there
i beg you to stay calm
stay patient and enjoy the moments no matter what happens
enjoy the pain and the worry even
for its all a part of the process
and its all a part of the joy
or the ... heartbreak
but even then its all a part of life

Hey there
i beg you to be strong
and be queit , but be positive
ya Allah please be positive
I beg you enjoy every moment
the not knowing
the not knowing
the thinking
the overthinking
the worry
the fer of being heartbroken

Hey there
I beg you to enjoy every minute
and everything
and stop the drama inside your head
for this is unprecedented
and its unimaginable
and it really is
really is unbelievable
so try to believe what you can
and maybe it will come true
for hey
this is your year
and Allah is with me
I know
just like he helps me and continues to help me
I know he will help me this time
I know
even if red shows he will help

Ya Allah help me
save me
save this thing happening
save me from the pain
Ya Allah save me from the pain

Ya Allah oh Ya Allah
I cant imagine
I cant believe
please help me to imagine
please help me to believe
and please help me to trust myself
and my thoughts
my mind please stop my mind flowing like this
and let it flow calmly
please let my mind relax
please tell me what to do
please show me
please show me
please save me
please save me from the pain
Ya Allah save me from the pain

Ya Allah I m here

1 comment:

seysoul said...

This is such a wonderful and powerful poem. I read it with tears in my eyes. May Allah save your from your heartache and your pain. I am going through a heartbreak too, and it's tearing me apart. I was looking for muslim sites on how to deal with it. Your poem is so real and I am less desperate now to see that I am not the only one struggling.
May Allah bless you.

What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -