I yearn to break free.
from my limited heartbreak to unlimited glee
I yearn to turn strong
soaring to the sky because I am young
and full of God
full of reason to believe
I yearn to think unique.
like no one has ever done and like noone has ever thought
I yearn to live once
not in a dream, not in a fantasy
not in a melody of a sweet tune
I yearn to be respected
by myself
Iyearn to be healthy
aaa healthy
like the wind in summer
or like dawn in december
white
queit
beautiful
or like fresh azans
or like grapefruit and oranges
no calories
I yearn to be clean
and do the right thing
or do the wrong thing and never do it again
i yearn to stop tlaking before someone tells me to
I yearn to be in love
but sometimes i understand why im so far away from
that day
so immature
so out of reasoning
so out of questioning
just ocntinously thinking and tihnking and thinking and
its maddening
my mind
wont breathe
wont rest
wont eat
even though i eat more than anyone
my mind is always stariving always
wanting and wanting and wanting
my mind
wont see wont hear wont be
just screaming like a baby for one thing
and im tired
im so tired
i can feel it in my back
in my chest
in my heart
its aching all the time
its beating less all the time
even though i want love
and I want to be empty when it comes
I f eel like im consuming so much energy to keep shining
even though it really needs a prayer
at hte right time
its like inflation has hit me
i have to consume and pay so much more htan i can afford
i have to use so much of my time my mind my energy my
dreams
my dreams
i feel like theyre getting old
not because of time
but because i cant refresh them
i cant edit them or
change them
even though they
need desperate changing
im tired
im becoming useless
to God
what matters a muslim if they are not believing
if they are not waking
if they are not i ntouch with the one that can makei t all right
whats thepoint
in living
for its really like dying
when you are without god
im exhausted
even though ive slept so much
im at a loss
as to what i want
i want so much
that i can have all
and yet i feel like i have nothing
from my limited heartbreak to unlimited glee
I yearn to turn strong
soaring to the sky because I am young
and full of God
full of reason to believe
I yearn to think unique.
like no one has ever done and like noone has ever thought
I yearn to live once
not in a dream, not in a fantasy
not in a melody of a sweet tune
I yearn to be respected
by myself
Iyearn to be healthy
aaa healthy
like the wind in summer
or like dawn in december
white
queit
beautiful
or like fresh azans
or like grapefruit and oranges
no calories
I yearn to be clean
and do the right thing
or do the wrong thing and never do it again
i yearn to stop tlaking before someone tells me to
I yearn to be in love
but sometimes i understand why im so far away from
that day
so immature
so out of reasoning
so out of questioning
just ocntinously thinking and tihnking and thinking and
its maddening
my mind
wont breathe
wont rest
wont eat
even though i eat more than anyone
my mind is always stariving always
wanting and wanting and wanting
my mind
wont see wont hear wont be
just screaming like a baby for one thing
and im tired
im so tired
i can feel it in my back
in my chest
in my heart
its aching all the time
its beating less all the time
even though i want love
and I want to be empty when it comes
I f eel like im consuming so much energy to keep shining
even though it really needs a prayer
at hte right time
its like inflation has hit me
i have to consume and pay so much more htan i can afford
i have to use so much of my time my mind my energy my
dreams
my dreams
i feel like theyre getting old
not because of time
but because i cant refresh them
i cant edit them or
change them
even though they
need desperate changing
im tired
im becoming useless
to God
what matters a muslim if they are not believing
if they are not waking
if they are not i ntouch with the one that can makei t all right
whats thepoint
in living
for its really like dying
when you are without god
im exhausted
even though ive slept so much
im at a loss
as to what i want
i want so much
that i can have all
and yet i feel like i have nothing
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