searching for the missing sultanate 3

i.....am lost for words not as usual
usually i write a lot of words when im lost
therefore i am
not lost to write
rather i am
trying to find words

i have been searching for the missing sultanate a long time inside me
a long time
i know she's there that beautiful woman in side me who is strong beautfiul and religious cool and really is a hope to see
sometimes i came so close but then it would all runaway
and now here i am
25
and
going to try again
this time diffrently
this time correctly
this time succeedingly


I ....have less words strangely for a very important time
for a very important day
strangely i dont know whether i should write about the past or today the present
or the future
should i write about my feelings or my actions
my aims or my challenges or should i write ryhmyes about waves and sultanates

there is a b lock on my heart today

but it is to keep the drama ...out
today is a beautiful day
a new day
a happy day
a miraculous day
a day in my history
a day i have been given a present in .... life
it is a day where you can be pulled from normality and enjoy the unique day that is yours to be happy in
yours to be quiet in
strong in
today is a day where you can recollect your heart again for all the pieces come together
no matter what the break was the pieces come back together
and its up to yo to reunite them
to never let them go again