Thursday, December 16, 2010

If i had one wish..........


If I had one wish

I would stop this manical metamorphing of having to love SOME - body and stRT LOVING MYSELF



Listen and dont trip

your life is slip

tripping and falling

falling and never getting up

If I had one wish

I would create a heart changing love

I would erase all the above

Iwould be patient and me

I would never let someone get to me

unless they were beautiful

in soul and mind

but what I'm doing now

If i had one wish I would cancel all the cells making me think like this

making me cry like this

all the people making me feel like this



If I had one wish

We would be best friends

love would never end

temperatures begin

If i had one wish

you would be my boo

promise to love you

trust me I trust you

if i had one wish

we would run away

makin love all day

have us a baby

If I had one wish

lI'd make you my whole life

can you be my wife


If I had one wish I would understand myself better

I would trust in God more

I would forget people who make me frustrated

I would be calmer

IWould be involved with my love and music to set my life correct

not to intercept my life with others

with other peoples intervention



If I hade one wish

I would never dance with anybody that I dont love

I would never say to anybody love them unless I truly love them

unless it is right


If I had one wish

we would run away

to heaven



to be continued........

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What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -