Wednesday, December 1, 2010

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH>>> Liar


Oh no
I'm in big trouble
big trouble
trouble like ive never felt before
I'm a liar
I'm a thief of love
I'm a.. lost wonder
I used to think I was strong
I used to think I was happy
I used to think I was the one anyonce could count on
but Ive discovered I can dissapoint
badly
I am in big trouble

I dont have the power to stop myself
I dont have the power to stop falling
I tried and failed
I didnt try and failed
I try but dont try at the same time
oh no Im in big trouble
Ive lost faith
ive lost the line to the future
ive lost the path of hope
Ive not watched the sun rise in...............

a long time

long enough to forget good things
long enough to forget how to try

oh god im in big trouble
im in big mistakes
oh god i feel so bad
you know i feel bad
ive never done semthing like this before
i feel awful
i feel so terrible

so ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
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What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -