As I see this dark black, perfectly fitting shades with crystals shaping stars on the side, I cannot resist walking on the other line, I cannot resist becoming someone else, for just a while- So I wear it, I use it and then....
I look at myself,
I cant see my eyes anymore, tired, worn and ugly
I can only see the black silk of expensive make - proud on my face, suddenly turning me into a superstar, hiding all my flaws and my secrets, I stare at myself, the girl with the beautiful designer sunglasses with all the real dreams and the real life,
for a second, for a moment , everything went still, as the mirror reflected nothing but everything I Ever wanted, ... Hiding sadness, for at that moment, even I couldn't see sadness,
I stood there, as the sunglasses protected me from my burnt tears,the hot heat of lies and pain... I felt sanctuary in front of that tiny rectangle of glass that showed me who I could be, how people could see me - ...
" Excuse me, we have sale on today if you buy any sunglasses more than 150 Pound sterling, you get 10% off... Do you like these?''
I could afford these I thought, techniquely I could buy these sunglasses, buy my way to hiding my thoughts and fear, Hide my faults and my traumas... and most of all hide my tears, I could cry behind these glasses and know one would know, I could frown and my eyes can scream and beg for help and know one would ever hear... I could buy these sunglasses I thought....
'' Yes Thank you, But I was just looking around''
I gently took them off & placed them back where they belonged,
I could buy them I kept thinking, but I could never hide from God, All my mistakes - Will always be there
hiding behind 5 star glasses, crying Phalestinans would still see me and ask me... we deserve Your love more
No - It is not the answer...
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