may I ...ruin everything for the sake of respect

Hello there,
IM the part of you that doesnt care about anything but respect
I cant see or hear or be anyone or anything when i dont recieve it
I want to be the best in all I am and I want to fight the world
for I am strong and legible , I am unfair but just , I am kind
but God I can also be really cruel , really really cruel
I'm the part of you that insists to never fall , to never crumble
and to never step down
even when battles are hard , and it seems a total failure
even when dramas are heated
never fall down , ever
so then why do you want to hide
why do you want to stop thinking

why do you want to cry later

because its never what i mean yet it always happens that i dont want it to happen that way
I hate myself for being so strong
but i cant understand how i can be me without it
if i was weak i would not be the woman i am
i dont give a shit about anything else
BUT ... then again
not giving a shit except a bout respect can ruin everything else
fuck this im angry and im strong
I dont give a shit
except about my respect
its all i got
my
respect
its what my dad taight me
but he also taught me to stay out of trouble
and trouble is what i put myself in today