should have got a license

sad that i cant wake up on time
sadder that i dont care
sad that i feel so large
with deep thoughts of despair
can I really be the one I dream
or Will i be trapped in a dream
forever
until all passes me like fantastic races
and  I pretend im happy in their faces
I dont know sometimes I feel so mad
at myself and who i am
and sometimes im stronger than the best
because i put myself to the test
to never give up
and to always remember God forgives
and God gives
what you desire and need
but all in the right time
and its not the time


lost in drama of dancing and well done biscuits
tender and just right perfect to the taste
perfect to the touch
like me
perfect
I want to be perfect
or at least try
nearly the end of the year
so many years ive been trying
and now im still trying
I hope next year
I find all I want
faith family, friends,
health
wealth and happinness
love I hope i find love
or rather I hope it finds me
but most of all I hope
I hope that im always hopeful and that i dont resist to sadness