Thursday, December 10, 2009

I never usually 35


What did you want to tell me!

Tell me...


What do you think?

She stared into his eyes, fearful of the powerful words stirring inside her - but that was how she felt and she could no longer hide it -


I love you

_____________________

I can't describe it, it just makes me cry

so bad

i cry like i've never cried before

my heart is burned from all that people say

but escpecially from what i say

I say.... I have not tried hard enough

not now

not ever

-


tears roll down my face as I remember all their words

all their words

everyone

from big to small

from wise to silly

everyone thinks the same

and they are all right

____________________-




Did the slap come here?

aha


his fingers carress her cheek, gently pulling her nearer to kiss the past away -


is the pain gone now?

yes it did!


This peace, this queitness, I wish it never ends

lets stay here all the time, shall we?


we never leave!

we stay here

we dont even move

they find us here like this

locked in an embrace like this


He closes his eyes for a moment , smiling

A, I've never loved like this

you

me

land

sky

sea

everything is mixed up

I feel dizzy

I am like in a dream

don't ever wake me up



I've waited so long for you to tell me all these



it was the first day i came here

I came across you

I understood it by that very moment


understand what?


That I would fall in love with you

however hard I tried

however hard i tried to stop myself

I would never run away from you

Everything was in vain

now i know that I cannot be without you

I will never give up on you


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What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -