Turn this page- and live

IF i had to write a poem on the most important day of my life and how my life will be an how i feel
And how i know will change forever
I dont know what the words would be
How the lines would go
How would one describe their emotion or their fears
Their hopes or their dreams
Or their moments of despair or excitement
Amd suddenly the silence is peaceful yet boring
And the excitement is tormenting but pleasing
And the fears are haunting but necessary

I realise that from today
I cannot look back
I cannot think of who i was
I cannot think of what i did or how i treated or how i thought
Or how i did or did not endure life
I realise that from today
My positivity and strength and responsibility must conquer
I realise that everything must stop
So that everything can start
Amd everything will be ok
For allah is with us and i will never be i again
And even in i - i will be transformed
Will be complete
Will be just simply found
And will forget
All things and turn the page of history
For here i am
Life bringing me to this point
Of calm
Of inner peace
And yet of a storm
That i know i will pass
And the answer lies within me
And from me and by me and through me
From now on