Just a telephone filled with prayers
I dont deserve
My love is channeled to those who dont want it and yet to those who do ... i fail
I feel like i am a mutter of unnecessary broken things inside me
Like turmoil within me
Why am i like this,?
Unfair and mean when theyre so nice
But i know that life is balanced
And just as i am kind they are also selfish
But i am indifferent to my emotions
I do love my family
And i dont particularly deserve all those prayers
If i hadnt answered no prayers
Simple as that
So why do i deserve?
And here i am thinking about other people
Like a love affair
Someone elses family
Someone elses tries and hardships
Someone elses thoughts and way of life
Exactly like an intruder
And yet i am still intruding
Yet where i am accepted and loved
I dont feel like i belong
Now that is tormenting and evil and a personality shocker
I belong in my family
No one can choose their family
And i love my family
The ones who have failed me i can only simply fail them
The ones who have dissapointed me
I can only simply try to let go
The ones who i cannot understand i can only simply try to ignore the misunderstandings
The ones who i have fought with
I can only simply ask for forgiveness
The ones who anger me
I can only simply hide those blazing emotions from the camera
The ones that care
I can only simply care back
And the ones that love
I can only simply love back
But whatever i do
I cannot substitute
I cannot love another family and hope and woth for their familial love back
No i cannot and i will not
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