I write for peace
I write for eternity
that I find my soul lost within the spaces of time
time that i spent here in my home
in my garden
in my city
that i never chose to be in but it chose me
and as i grew up it became a part of me and I part of it
today I sit reminiscing how a child I was
and how childhood lived in me
wishing and playing
and then turning into a young girl
dreaming and praying
I was good
I was bad
and I was in between
but I was me
hope
never an illusion, just r eal
in the angles and the circles of my family
I lived with them and they lived with me
creating moments
that at the time ....were normal
but now are so very very precious
for I seek to hold them like gold in my mind
and write with them a present
that is now a present to me
that i must never lose
here I am ...a woman in a crossroads
travelling to the future and never going back to the past
the past will also be new now
and I will never return the same again
i dont know what the future holds for me
but I know if I Dont trust God I will fail
and so I ask God for forgiveness
for everlasting true love with him
and the want to go to paradise always
and never somewhere else
this is change happening
this is change unfolding
and living it isnt easy
for it feels like I have to tear all my fears away
and it feels like I have to disturb the peace
and walk away from me into a new me
almost as if Im entering a new realm
passing a new portal
going to the future
but Ive never been happier
or more excited
or more cherished in my life before
and no matter how much I thank God it will never be enough
ever
(to be continued)
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