Pull ur life back...can you do that?

you might ask me - why is it so hard to do something so small

i might say - I don't know

and act like you didn't spear me with your words

but in fact I do know and you did... hurt me very deeply

I am surrounded by not just this

but so many other thoughts, fears, troubles and scars

I am not just this

I am more... much more

But I know that no one sees me that way

they see someone who should just.... do that one small thing

I can't change this bad thing in me
and every day - it's a stuggle

I am pained and cannot understand why I have left it
escape

run

get kidnapped

you know...when you close doors
and shut windows

and force your eye sight to everything else except what you are afraid of

it's easier

you know - when you don't have the power to

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Pull back the rope still being thrown

because at the end of that hanging forgotten system

is

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Pull your life back

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