Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Khartoum Heartbreak 7_it's just a glass of water


On the balcony of a busy subsaharan sleeping neighbourhood, the hum of the air conditioning moistens the intensity of position -of condition to wake up and live again within an unknown time - wind fans the moisture, the texture of a ...dress enlightens romance, begins a story. Light is night and what is impossible is most likely improbable - but here, right now, it is real - an ..alternate reality of crisp flaky windows open into the bewildered exterior, the doors tap tap tap queit solitude intervening with armors of protecting ...a floating dress.

Silently cushions lie, LED lamps blink feverishly a passion of despair, tables gently flatten peace, carpets curl beneath any ignorance - the washing sound of blissful africa - in my heart

Thirsty for the glass that quenches sanity of vastness

It is 2,42 AM - my feet twinkle in the shadows, dancing to reach through the familiar darkness, where within the realms of clean tops and unemployed crops - lies the opening of a mysterious cabinet, for it is now that it only lets its true beauty soar, its fantastic coolness and power of golden chill - I raise my hand to the mumbling strings of our refrigator, my dress - swinging to the last of the taken spring --- of immersed jug water - memorable to dream with as it trickles lust and cool desire -I am here for you... take me - the water hushes lashes of staring in compartments of wilderness - for tastes of africa lie only within my touch - the scent of ice - the waft of home made yoghurt - its particles crystalising with white -- predicament - Mint... smashes feelings into reason - Mango - the delights of mango - ushering watefalls of sweet temptation - the kitchen enhances with destiny - and I am a part of that collection of sudanese affair


1 comment:

Anonymous said...

the doors tap tap tap queit solitude

What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -