picses truth

Pisces

 

It’s natural (whats natural within me? within these large compounds, inside these soft walls, there is an unnatural process, a broken promise inside me) to care what other people think of you, Pisces. But this week, don’t give outside opinions the final vote in your decision-making process. On Monday, the ego-driven sun in your relationship house faces off with your ruling planet, foggy Neptune. This makes you susceptible to the sway of dominating people — and even a bully or two ( I wish my luck came in two, Ya Allah). Steer clear of critics early this week, especially the ones who always undermine you with their “helpful hints.” And yes, swaddle yourself in the support of people who see your greatness and encourage you to be your biggest, baddest self. But most of all, listen to your own ( be selfish, be targeted, be strong, be your own to get your own) inner guidance. YOUR opinion is the one that counts most this week, but you might need to slip off for some solo time in order to hear that very important voice in your head.You could have that “me, myself, and I moment” on your yoga mat or while taking a long run in the park. Dance partners Mars and Venus align in your wellness zone on Tuesday, reminding you to pause and take care of your body, too. With Venus still retrograde — from July 25 until this Sunday — you might give your beauty routine a revamp. Swap out synthetic products for organic or natural versions. Reignite (and dont ever give up - 7-3 and hope for 2) your inner glow by eating clean and green AND getting plenty of rest. Since this planetary pairing is connected to love, think about the health of your relationships. Are you communicating honestly or have you been holding too much in? Resentment can be poisonous to partnerships, Pisces. Talk feelings through with a levelheaded friend so you can have a heart to heart when Venus turns direct again this Sunday. And while summer’s not quite over yet, coupled Pisces could hop on the wellness wagon as a pair. Bring on the buddy workouts and smoothies for two (luck in the last)!

From pause to play

Feeling despair

Empty gold snd platinum running by

I prayfor myself.... Limited editions

Only in a miniscule like asecret

Like a small hole in my heart

I move with my mistakes to a newlevel to a new era

Of forget

Just forget others

Just lose to their pain

Too much to handle yours and theirs so itsjust yours   

But even yourself u to choose to forget

And instead u choose regret

A broken woman u are

Always feeling like u havnt done something

Always feeling like u havnt earned something

Always feeling like u havnt looked out for 

Yourself

Always looking over your shoulder for the future u deserve

Always looking for drama u dont need

Always wasting time that u do need

In love with the right person

Kind and sexy and honest

Sweet caring and happy

A happy man

But i want to make him happier

And happier

Ya rab 

Please take from me bad thoughts and only give me good ones

Please only show me good things

Please dont let me lose in anything

Please take away my pain my fears and my thoughts of sadness 

Please please forgive me

Please let me be deserving of hard things

 Of things tht are precious

Please be with me through thick and thin

But give me the pleasures in life that are just so sweet

Please dont give up on me

Nd please dont stop your rewards

Your kindness that showers on me

Always in evry little thing of my life

Let my story be truth and beauty and sunshine

New life and great love

Peace and trust 

Ya rab 

Let me be the one u choose

 Let me be

Ya allah let me be

Please let that pause button go on

To play

Ya rab i ask u and travel to a place filled with true dreams

Ya rab

Let it all come true

Never look back(POW)

Purple woman

Purple woman

I am kind i am my heart is kind and i know it

No one can tell me otherwise even me

And i realise that things that upset me can make me weak it does not make me a bad woman

No i am a good woman a great one

I am smart and i am young

Knowledge is my colour and seeping through i have let devils enter

Bad thoughts and short intervals or pain

I have made broken promises to myself time and time again

Unreasoned with trauma and regret of mind

But i am a good morning and a sweet night

I am that jasmine queen of the night except i am the hope of the night

I am the innocence and honesty i grew up with and the joys i felt

I am the many dreams i have gone through and the stories i have met

I am the faith that lights me and the words that bright me

But words are a dangerous tool that i must create and make

I am also a dangerous woman

Having hurt people the closest to me

I am also a dangerous woman

Damaging my clean self and soul and giving those fantasies away to who what where i dont even know

Its like having a gold ring and throwing it in the ocean

Just dont open your fingers and let it slip

Dont let it slip

And dont look at that ocean like its engulfing

Like its horrendous

Like its tormenting

Like its too big

Look at it like its the size of that ring in your hand

The size that it is to allah

Like a cup of water

Look at it like the refreshing future it could be 

The beautiful mystery it holds

Hold that ring and look for more 

Destination sky

Somewhere far away 

A train is leaving a platform and organisation exists

Near me chaos trembles in the form of little pearls of rain at 9 am

The calmness if the day is glorious and beautiful

I want to be here and not anywhere else

Somewhere someone is walking for their daily exercise and pilates is open

Cafes glisten and costa coffee soars

Shops open but there will always be lonliness 

For here the nothing i look into makes me a better person

It must do

For thisisy own here i came and from here i come

The land is moist and the rubish filters its pain into a saddening ppicture

My lines are still 1 and i do not have purity in my mind

Purity exists only with the sure only with the ones aiming sky

But i 

I always question the rubbish and hate the dirt

Live event chose me and it was amazing 

Felt like this is what it should be like for a moment

This is what it should feel like in a moment

Positivity i hold and it falls from me everyday

I want something but i dont even say

I want something that only i am stopping myself from

To be continued

Burger and tongue

Love yourself

Honestly and purely

Start newin wvery single thing

Remember 

Only u can control yourself after allah

Love yourself

Hurt laugh and enjoy everything

Dont give up or inonly look up and inside yourself

Ask yourself share that pain when it gets too much

Love those results when tey happen

Breathe that positivity when iit shows

But untilxthen be that woman you alwys were... Beautiful

Remember .... It all

Pretending pretending

I wonder why i dont think like them

Is it me and carolina all over again?

Or is it me and me all over again

I hate pretending 

Why is there ao much pretending

Isthere something wrong with me fir me to be pretended on

Or is it a normal thing people pretend to each other

It saddens me

I think am friends with someone relatives with someone

And i realise so much is hidden

Theyre closer to someone else

They prefer to not pretend with someone else

I feel lost

This time 

We went to jalepenos and all i got was one less of mine and a side of pretending 

And a side of tricking

Uggh when i remember 

I just want to know who he is! Such lies

No wonder my closest relative lie to me too and wear their sunglasses to hide their black eyes

But i dont have  black eyes

And i dont have sadness or pain

I was so happy to hear some people are like me 

Ya rab let me be like them

Yarab

I want to be kind 

I want to teach my family to be to be kind

Ya rab let me have a familya rab  

Beautiful white dress