Work writing- a mess

Here i am loving caring understanding wanting needing having not having

My life is worth living 

Always i think about the girl in the yellow cardi all the way there a long time ago and all the pain she had inside her how images are so decieving she might have been happier in a slum but how unhappy shewas i. The free world

Civilisation as some like to call it

But i think

Civilisation is within u 

My home is beautifully civilised although just 20 steps outside is a rubbish dump 

Or dinner for some

 I miss him so much

I want him as much asthe purple and pink eyeshadows i couldnt stop myself getting

Or the morrocan fabrics in ... Storm

My heart is astorm

Im complete confident yet broken and weak

I am smart i am happy

But am also the one to make myself cey

I am reasy to be a mother

I cant even imagine how it feels 

Its like walking on the moon for me