Ramadan day 21- all my cards are down

يا الله لا تجعلني خسرانة من هذا الدنيا 

All my playing cards are down 

For i like chocolate and good food

And travrl but too deep to put myself for a family

All my cards are down

I am just words

I am just broken size

Travelling pain

And then out ofcthe blue

Someone speaks my anguish into the open air

Someone younger than u has become someone better than u

Even planning to enter ur world

And someone smaller than you

Has had ur wish come true

Even though

Its all urs and u always thought urself the stronger one

Dishing about your wealth health and

Everything else

And now 

Someone pointed out to u how weak ur are

All ur weak points

All ur bolts open

All ur pain gushing

Like too much choc cake 

No matter how much laugter

Fun or mango

There is a scream

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Or i could also write

God has never let me down

Always been on my side

Always been there for me

Always givene the best

Even though i have not deserved it

I have beenpatient i have been kind

I have been honest

And i will alwaysbe

Even if things take time

Even if things are hard

God will not let me down

In these blessed days

I will not lose hope

I will not fall to someone elses words

I will not pretend it doesnt hurt sometimes

But i will not succumb to that hurt and fall even deeper

No

I  better i am stronger

I am a good woman and one day i will be a great mother

And i know allh will not fail me

Ya rab