Saturday, April 11, 2009

Furiously Fast interpretation



Countless emotional response, waves the beginning of a race so loud in its energy it bounces of the radicles of my heart to run away into the nightly invisible


From withing the dark layers hidden and the angles ridden, I could fly and die, ryde and die into the stars of the blissful gangster soul - the faith of the engine revs its lust to dissappear into the horizon of a drivers beat - the foot and hand of expiremental awakening,

WHO IS GOING TO WIN BUT ME>?

The fast depths within me sign to a rhythm of control, allow the hypnotisation of this crucial spot to grow, to envisage the end the way it must be


I MUST WIN

The furious magnifies to the effect of speed of temper and no peace, the dust rises to cover all the hustler feel - eyes stare into the others bullshit and the way the lies branch out to turn the key

THERE IS NO PEACE within me, NOW it is the destiny of tonight

and I part with evolution and welcome destruction as long as it buys me fame and a heart of steel

my wheels turn and scratch the surface of a joke

I want to race the future and wait at the other side for it to arrive

with a cigarette in my hand that I held for an hour or so....

Chasing my mind into corners of trouble until I beg for escape

Behind me is history catching up

Going to consume me with mistakes

and I MUST NOT LET GO NOW,

I must not brake abroad in exports of time

where am I

How do I do this??

within the dark alley ways and mad prays

I could NOT get what I wish for

even though engines scream politely to the surface

I face that I may discover what it is I dream for

What it is I want to reach the sky for

In a background of artifact on streets I once walked on

now I pistol the stars to burst the truth

Burn marks or stretch marks of pain

there we are bound and they become wound in evidence

that I am lost in this page and that meaning, that story and that life

I am confused by that time and that effort, those temptations and those passions

the way they choose their freedom

and the way I choose mine

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What it is...

I see Life like a rose in the ice... beautiful but with cold settings - There are so many incredible things out there - but we always need to fight and perservere against the hardships too... otherwise the cold will win ... and we will wither away.

My imagination has led me to believe in something called 'Sudan Fairytale' -
The fantasy that My country will one day be independant and proud, never selfsish to provide its people with its needs, give freedom and success to all, be forever committed to achieve a prosperous inhabitance to every Sudanese in their own country-

My eyes fail me and I see the truth which I call - 'Khartoum Heartbreak' - This is a theme running through the blog under the 'Khartoum Heartbreak' Poems and whatever else about Sudan conveying broken down love, poor streets and cut off electricity along with a lot of other decays and problems in Khartoum city Life.

But I love my country and so I have no choice but to merge the Pain and the Love as one.

Faith is my heart and I could never do without it hoping in my prayers that I can be someone better always and that God forgives me as I fall in Mistakes through that frozen path of Life...

Sometimes I feel under control with all the too many emotions that run to colour my days and nights - Books, movies, music, dreams, friends, family, strangers, travel, - reality - the 10 O' Clock news -Most of the time I'm very Lost in trying to understand - whatever happens becomes tangled into writing this confusing memoir -

It's a really odd combination of air - not sure whether it is refreshing or suffocating - stabilising or maddening - But I breathe and
so it is
'Memoirs of a Sudanese breath' as I am 'Lost but under control' -