They see you from where you cannot

Devils come and go and some stay

We have been informed and told they see you from where you cannot

I imagine devils watching me letting myself down

Because in this life the one chance we have to drive success and happiness is fragile 

And I ask myself

Why not me?

So the devil answers

It will never be you 

And then I believe

So I stop

And my mind gets foggy 

And my admiration for my strength is no more

I just see myself as a sack of fat

And a bad mother

And ugly wife and disappointing daughter

And a human with no integrity

And 

And

So the devil hits high five with the crew

See I told you it might take me longer to beat this one after Ramadan but I told you I have no doubt that I can send her rolling and falling 

So I ask myself

Isn’t it sad that the devil would be so weak and yet so strong at the same time

That he has committed to breaking dreams and goodness and aspirations and hope

This evil one wins?

And then me the good one

The really strong one I said

The one that can’t bare to give up or be told off

Loses? 

And it’s all because I have left the devil do so 

From the place he sees me and I cannot

But isnt that his only advantage? 

And didn’t god give me a heads up telling me 

That this is the case

So who has the advantage then? 

Who really has the advantage?