Breakfast in hell.

I have to accept i am a piece of hell mKing

Ideas soften inside and roughen my skin

Blending my takes i try

I fail

I wonder whose fault it is

Someones else living my dreams

Every.

Single.

One.

In everything

I do not have the upper hand in the things i create

The things i make

Mine

Part of me my body my mind

Are not really mine

And i have theemptiness of the eggs beans and mushrooms to prove it

I hurt

Very much

I try

I fail 

I push it breaks

They are not my friend

They are not interested

In me

For i am a piece of hell 

In my familys life.  

ما تفرضي رائيك

رائيك قوي

بدون اناقة ولا هدي

ما تفرضي رائيك 

رائيك حار

وانتي ما نار

ما تفرضي رائيك 

رائيك غالب

وانا ما نحن ما …. معاك

ما تفرضي رائيك

You arebossy 

ماتفرضي رائيك 

خليها و خلينا

ما تفرضي علينا

Ur thoughts

ما تفرضي رائيك 

Just leave us alone

ما تفرضي رائيك 

انا مع ناس …

بي جاي

ما 

تفرضي

رائيك

كل ما ساي

ما تفرضي رائيك 

I give

And i never ask

ما تفرضي رائيك

بحلم بي rotana in a dofferent past

In those stories

I cannot write

What a waste of 6.49 

ما تفرضي رائيك

انا احسن منك 

ما تفرضي رائيك

The tears hold

For now

But i am close to not understanding how

Of what ive become…

ما تفرضي رايئك

He wont come for me…

Or will he?

I dont know

Wait….

22.25

Wait….

ما تفرضي رايئك

Its research

The aches and pains and mistakes

ما تفرضي رايئك 

ما تجيني

Wait

U dominant piece of shit

ما تفرضي

رايئك

U slap piece of fuck

ما تفرضي رايئك

U useles piece of waste

Wait

22.27

ما تفرضي رايئك

U sensitive piece of scum 

ما تفرضي رايئك

Told u i was tired

Ur the last piece of shit on my mind

Maybe once a week if ur lucky 

…

Wait

22.28 

Volcano lava on my face

Sit back and enjoy the silence

The loneliness

Let the lava burn ur clothes

Let it tske ur heartبس ما تفرضيرايئكU ugly piece of woman….

 

True words

Im feeling sick

Feom the inside out

Im feeling wrong

No longer strong

Im feeling weak 

And meek

Towards my life

Im feeling dependant like an old man to their walking stick

But not for moving for stalling

I am not well

I feel down

And around and around

My wishes are nit my command

I am not anything

I am not promising

I am  not right

There is  no fight

Left in me

I am alone

With a heart of stone

All these ideas

Are like drugs

Turning me over

Into a dry ash leaf

I am a thief

Of myself

Broken unspoken

An emotoy tokwn

Unable to fulfill 

My own aspirations

Chosen

Fragmented

I am ill represented.

I am not well

Black ice

Im sick

Really sick

Ice that doesnt melt in the sun

Eyes that cannot see

A body that has no truth

Or love

Fake

Im black

Rotting like a dead apple

Even my choices are scary

I can see the evidence

——

Who can i talk to?

No one in this world

With all these people and yet im so lonely

So far

So sad

So bad

So mad

So cannot be her friend my own 

Always angry at me and im always angry at her

Love depleted

95 euros worth of nothing

So quick to act

Filling in the spaces i cant

Im …

I

…

Have no one who likes me

Escp god

He really wouldnt like me