Oh no - how was she going to answer?? - all the memories of the past suddenly came speeding through her - pain - lies - dishonesty - unfaithfullness- it was a film rolling through her mind, seperating her from where she was now - she couldnt get out of 'The cinema' she had just entered - a film of memories -
How he had hurt her - told her he loved her but it meant nothing - told her he cared but left her alone -Then the fear she had tried to always hide came bulging its way in front of her eyes - all men would do this to her - all men would say they cared and then forget - change into someone else -
'so what do you say?'
'well ..um... I dont know..'
'Look.. I want to show you around the place- take you out to eat , just somewhere where we can hang out-'
He looked at her from the other side of the table and made a begging funny face -
'pleaaasssseee'
she couldnt help but smile amidst her dark clouds
She wanted to go out with him - somehow from within the smallest shadow of hope she felt he was different. and she liked that - she had never felt comfortable in her mind for a long time - but she was still scared- this is how the problems could start all over again - and it had only been less than a year when the past she hated to remember had been real -
He had almost thought he won her over - Her eyes were melting .......
'I'm sorry we cant- too much work and I really need to get it done- so you can take a break on your own but I can't-'
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