Day 31 /1

for hte last month we look at minutes with exact detail
they mean so much
for they mean opening joy and closing allowances

and now its 00.00
the first minute of eed
I think to myself
small details should give me joy
for I am here youthful and proud strong and healthy and clever enough to know how kind god has been to me

I pray that all my windows and doors are closed from the devil
i pray my soul is mine and mine alone
I pray i am the most obedient servant
for it is he that i should be racing to make proud

god has given me and other muslim girls an occupation
to free islam and live it with all its beauty and indentations in life
but to never forget the hidden secrets of the unseen but foretold
heaven and purity and scents and strange things and dark green
like a love story
or the most secret of you
the most centre or most deepest part of your heart
that you decide to never give to anybody but god
fajr
i have decitated myself to for the last 30 days
 they say it takes 30 days to change a habit
but  i say fajr is my breath of the day that if i leave un inhaled shatters my lungs and freezes my heart
for fajr warms the morning
and cools the night breeze of darkened light
and brings you closer to god and your dreams

I pray
i ask
I know I will be answered
for I pray to the one who is kind and merciful
and I ask the one that is shy to return his servants empty
and I know i will be answered

Ya Rab, change the whole of me