Sounded te opposite sound sarcastic
Or was it naturally called for
I havnt seen u do anything u promised... So why now
I suddenly ask myself
Why am i apologising for my own lifes walk ? Thsse are my decisions and my options
Why do i have to feel bad about them
Its likke apologising for sleeping or thinking
And i suddenly realised it was my fault i was letting others make me feel like this
That made me keep thinking about how they would feel about things i was doing instead of how i would feel about things i was doing
So today
Instead of being happy being sound being alive
All i feel is regret for a choice ive taken
That got me further thinking
If i always think like this always worried about what others think about my natural paths or my private lifes choices
Wouldnt i just get sick of making those choices
Or no wouldnt the choices mean nothing to me
Im really doing them for others
Therefore the first person i really should care about what they think is me
What do i think.
How do i feel
What do i need
Why have i chosen to do that?
Now those are the real questions
And now im feeling quite... Annoyed i guess
More at myself
Ive done so many bad choices that ive let other crawl into me like ... Water soaking a sponge
I deserve better from myself
And because im not doing that
My ropes are untightening
And anything is ... Harmful hurtful heavy
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